Corporate life

I started to believe that life -- our daily life (things we have to do to get through the day or years if you like) forces every one of us to be the same person in a way that is absolutely useless to resist: It always wins. A well known fact is expectations of our society from its individuals are not diversified: education, work, family. Well, this is not breaking news. But which wasn't clear to me until recently how strongly this would affect my life. I always thought I would (at least could) turn out to be the person exactly how I wanted to be. But now, I realize that there is no escape and this corporate life is much bigger than I've ever imagined. I am on the way being a carbon-copy individual the society wants me to be, such that I could even notice some changes in my lifestyle only in a couple of months. Surely, my options on weekdays are limited due to obligatory work hours. What really disappointing is that even my thoughts and ideas are dull, they lack creativity, they are just empty. World would not lose anything if I wasn't able to think. I feel like an office worker stereotype who asks  his wife for dinner as the first thing after coming home, sits on a couch until falling into sleep at the same time over and over again, talks only about sports, women and cars and money of course. The worst part is I am doing some of these things I've mentioned. This sucks my soul. That really expressed how I feel nowadays. This is just becoming too personal, I don't want this blog to be some kind of diary. Maybe because I am ashamed of my feelings and feel vulnerable if I open up. Having stated that, there could be some other reasons.